So Carsyn has been doing WONDERFUL! I am very happy to say that Carsyn has been seizure free for about two weeks, and before that only had 2 or 3 after his T&A surgery. He's been a VERY happy boy :) you don't even understand how happy I am to tell everyone that! The only issue seems to be that he does NOT want to sleep. He will sometimes stay up for two days and finally crash out. Not sure why. He just doesn't want to sleep? or his he having nightmares? I need to talk to the doctor about it and see if they can get him on something to help him sleep, because this is getting very tiring. I just can't believe how quiet he is now! It kind of freaks me out. I'm constantly getting up to check on him. He on the other hand finds this hilarious. so. not. cool.
I have been thinking about a lot of things lately. One of them being Todd. In case no one has read My entire blog(I don't blame you) and does not know who Todd is I will remind you all. Todd is my very amazing boyfriend and has been for almost three years now. Now, I don't think I have ever really gone into detail about how much this man does for me. I have never had someone take me on this way. He jumped right in. He was nervous with Carsyn at first, but after a while that was it. There is no separating these two. Carsyn LOVES Todd, and Todd loves Carsyn. Carsyn will get SO happy when he comes home from work. Todd will watch him whenever I need to get out. no objections. He will do meds, change diapers, put him to bed, help me with a bath, watch him while I go shopping with my mom or need to go out with a friend, anything if I ask. I have NEVER had a man treat Carsyn the way he does. And it makes me love him even more. The way he looks at Carsyn. It's just..amazing. He truly cares about him. When someone asks if Carsyn is his he says yes. I want to cry EVERY time he does it. I don't think he even KNOWS how great he is being. He just is. Because that's how his mom raised him. It came out perfect. Carsyn LOVES him, he treats him fantastic, and I have feelings for him that I have never had for another person. There is not ONE thing that I don't like about him. He does things that I want to smack him for, but it doesn't take away from how I feel. It's very hard to explain, but it's like his flaws make me love him more. and it has NEVER been like that with someone else. I have always found flaws and counted them against the guy. On top of that, this man does everything for me. I hate it sometimes because I have never had to depend on a guy before, but he helps me out with everything if I need it. He helps me with computer payments, goes to the store to buy me female products AND DOES IT WITH CONFIDENCE, He is not afraid to do anything for me. and knowing that just makes me love him even more. He is honest with me about everything, he will tell me if I did something wrong, or when I'm being difficult. He is faithful, I can trust him to do anything. I trust him with my son, which is a lot of trust for me. He is warm, and kind and never yells at me. He does not lay a hand on me. He plays, I get tickled, tackled, and pinned down until I give up. :) He cares for me like no man has ever cared for me. and I can't believe I found him. He catches me off guard all the time. I have been with him for nearly three years and some of the things he does for me still surprise me. He stopped drinking for me in the first month we were together. He used to go out with his friends almost every day and come into the store hung over. When we first started seeing each other I had told him I didn't like drinkers, because I grew up around people who drank and it never turned out well. and he quit. Right then he decided to jump in and he quit drinking for me. He tells me exactly how he feels about me. I know where I stand with him at all times. He is my best friend, and we know each other like we have been friends forever. He knows if I'm thinking of doing something stupid, and I know when he's thinking of doing something stupid. It's like all of the break-ups, all of the heartbreak, all of the times I cried over someone meant nothing. He fixed me. He is there for me no matter what. Whether I'm crampy or sick, he makes me soup. If Carsyn is in the hospital or has an appointment, he takes off work for it. Whatever I did that lead me to him, I'm so glad I did it.
I thank god every day that he decided I was worth it.
I will marry this man one day <3
until next time <3
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