Well, actually. That's my life every day.
I recently got my top to wisdom teeth out. So I have been on pain medication for that. totally not fun. Weird part is, people are actually being decent now. It's weird. I'm waiting for the familiar feel of the knife stuck between my shoulder blades.
On another note we FINALLY had Carsyn's EEG at Strong hospital. It was wonderful. I can't telll you enough how much I loved that place. The doctors and nurses are wonderful. <3 They did however, find that Caryn's seizures are sleep related. He gets tired, he has a seizure.
The seizures are more under control... but very intense. his heart rate gets really fast and his breathing becomes shallow and rapid. The Doctor says we need to get this to stop... because apparently his heart rate could go irregular and he could go into cardiac arrest.. It happens with SIDS.
Sudden Infant Death Syndrome. SIDS. I nearly passed out when he said the words. You never think this stuff could happen to you. But it can. and if you're as unlucky as I am.. it will. :/
I also haven't been able to keep up with my schooling. AWESOME. :/
I think I'm going to be changing my major and going to a different school. If you know me well enough, you know I have more than the appropriate amount of makeup that a woman should have. WAY more. I'm constantly spending money on makeup when I have the extra cash.. I usually save up for a few months and then head to the nearest Sephora. I'm horrible.
So, there's a possibility that I may end up relocating... I'm hoping if this is my decision, that Todd will go with me. But I may be thinking selfishly. I don't want to be selfish. But I also know that love should inspire you to do things that you have always wanted to. It should make you a better person, not hold you back and control your life. Which Todd DOES NOT do. let's just hope he thinks the same.
Surprisingly, my boss is being very understand. I had to call off a couple times this week... and if you've read my blog before you know it ended in me quitting.
I told her how afraid of losing Carsyn I am, and that this is not just a "scare" this is a life or death situation with Carsyn. When we have to go to a hospital it's not something that can be brushed off. It's not just a cold, it's not just the flu. It's something serious. and she understood. She was comforting and made me feel really good about my decision to come back.
Carsyn on the other hand is LOVING this weather! It's been so nice! until today. We spent yesterday after I got out of work in the sun and hanging out with family and friends.
Those are the days I love the most. I wish we did it more often, but unfortunately we don't always have the time.
So here's to my friends and family who make the time for us when we can come out. Thank you. It makes for one happy little boy and gets us out of the house and with people we love. <3
I promise not to leave for so long again!
So until next time <3 <3
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